Yesterday was one of those days when I just felt endlessly hungry, and today is shaping up to be similar. It can be hard to handle times like this – being so hungry feels like a failure in a way, maybe because that is what it has so often led to. I used to binge, so the knot of hunger in the pit of my stomach makes me anxious.
But I’m not the same person. I’m taking care of my body and sometimes, that means giving it what it needs. The macro tracking app I use (which is iMacro Plus at the moment) provides extra “points” each week for a reason. I haven’t touched them for the past several weeks, but I may today if I’m feeling hungry. I’ve also drastically increased my activity level, from next to nothing to 4 days a week. That isn’t a lot for some people, but for me, that’s a big change, and my macros are still set to a sedentary lifestyle.
I’m not boredom eating, for once, nor am I emotionally eating. I’ve been too busy to boredom eat! Yesterday and today, I thought before each bit of food and waited to ensure I was really hungry. I ate slowly and paid attention to my food, starting with less nutrient-dense food to fill me up (carrots, air popped popcorn), but was still very hungry.
I was listening to the “Half Size Me” podcast yesterday, and one point really stuck with me. We talk about fitness being a lifestyle change, but sometimes lose sight of what that really means. It means what I do to lose weight, I will need to do for the rest of my life to maintain it. While in an unhealthy way, I’m willing to be hungry to lose weight (working on that), I’m not willing to do that for the rest of my life. Constant hunger is what leads to bingeing, and I’m definitely not willing to do that for the rest of my life.
So, what am I willing to do for the rest of my life?
I’m willing to track my eating if that’s what it takes. I’m willing to find the kind of exercise I like and move my body. I’m willing to keep fresh fruits and vegetables in my diet, and I’m willing to enjoy treats more occasionally instead of as a normal part of my diet. I’m willing to keep saying no when someone offers me a treat that I don’t actually want.
I’m willing to commit to this. For good. For the rest of my life.
So I will be conscious of what I eat, but I will also make sure I’m feeling nourished instead of hungry. I will forgive myself for bingeing in the past and take care of myself for moving forward. What do you do on hungry days? And how are you taking care of yourself on your fitness journey?
By the way, the pink oatmeal that is the header on this page is my usual breakfast! Steel cut oats with chia seeds, honey, and cinnamon, plus raspberries swirled through for a bright breakfast. Let me know down below if you’d like some oatmeal recipes!